framlingem

I am, thanks to my current job, becoming much better at managing my time so that I am better able to keep my promises, and therefore less likely to have massive anxiety-guilt about them.

My job means I can help people in very big ways - quantifiable in dollar amounts, and unquantifiable in that I am capable of reducing their stress and making them feel more in control and less alone in their trouble.

I have two pieces of paper stuck to my wall. One says "other people you have grown up with are finishing their degrees. They are getting married. You haven't. On the other hand, you have lived in three countries, travelled on three continents, have lived outside your parents' purview for nearly four years, performed live poetry for the Poet Laureate, and are debt-free." The other says, "there are those who would miss you." These are the first things I read every morning.

I walk confidently when I walk. I do not have mad fits of trembling at the thought of, say, going to the bank.

I think I may be coping. I am definitely better than I used to be.